Tonight I'm sitting in my own darling little old home, with candles burning, soft music playing and fresh cookies to eat. My life is filled with so many blessings I cant even count. Yet some how a heaviness has settled in on my heart and I don't know that I can even explain why.
Rather then focusing on the heaviness I would rather tell you about the thing that stands out as my truest joy no matter how heavy, how cold or how overwhelmed I might feel. My HUSBAND <3
What makes that man so amazing? How can he make me melt with a simple touch, or cry from laughing when I'm sad? He seems to know just what I need or don't need, and he honestly cares for me better then I could ever deserve. I'm pleased to say that I am completely and hopelessly not only in love with, but committed to my man.
I honestly believe that if you decide to you can love, be loved and be happy with (almost) anyone. Perhaps its my dads voice in my head telling my that if only one person is completely selfless it can work ;-) I know that I once considered loving someone by choice alone, I thank God daily that I didn't make that mistake. I live my days unable to help but too love him. Yes there are moments, and maybe some day even days when I have and will have to chose to love my man. I am confident however, that the days filled with a very pure and true kind of love makes and will make those days so much easier to face.
Yesterday he turned 23. Not really old at all right? Well that means that I have spent 10 amazing years loving this man, even when it hurt like hell to do so. I laid in bed last night feeling him breath next to me and begged God for another ten... I suppose the last line might sum up the heavy hearted feeling. How many people don't get even the first ten years with the love of their lives? I know a few...
I guess that as much as I do miss my family and friends, I am feeling so overwhelmed at where I am, who I;m with and all that I have. I strive to live for a might God and he showers me with more blessings then I know what to do with, and love is the greatest one of all....
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
I will be back!
Very very soon I will post pictures of the new house, the new life and the Rado (Husbands Colorado word;-) Just checking to see if there is any one out there who even cares... haha
Friday, December 18, 2009
I miss...
I miss decorating the tree the day after Thanksgiving and eating chilidogs.
I miss mom and dad telling us Christmas will be small this year (ever year) and it never mattering (cause it wasn’t ever true) and because our family is what makes holidays at the Lilley’s so great.
I miss having all our friends over to play poker, or Evan and Tiffany over for long conversations in front of the fire.
I miss Christmas’ in the snow, around the fire with my family building puzzles.
I miss Erin waking us all up at 4 to open gifts.
I miss breakfast in the toe of our stockings.
I miss dad reading the Christmas story.
I miss snack foods and hot drinks, or chips and salsa and diet coke in a cup with a straw.
I miss sledding down the hill outside our house.
I miss listening to mom laugh at the Grinch… every time!
I miss my family
I miss being a kid….
I love being a Lilley <3
I miss mom and dad telling us Christmas will be small this year (ever year) and it never mattering (cause it wasn’t ever true) and because our family is what makes holidays at the Lilley’s so great.
I miss having all our friends over to play poker, or Evan and Tiffany over for long conversations in front of the fire.
I miss Christmas’ in the snow, around the fire with my family building puzzles.
I miss Erin waking us all up at 4 to open gifts.
I miss breakfast in the toe of our stockings.
I miss dad reading the Christmas story.
I miss snack foods and hot drinks, or chips and salsa and diet coke in a cup with a straw.
I miss sledding down the hill outside our house.
I miss listening to mom laugh at the Grinch… every time!
I miss my family
I miss being a kid….
I love being a Lilley <3
Monday, October 5, 2009
Family
Change, it seems to come in waves. And while the first wave always feels a little overwhelming, I find that with the right attitude any change can be a good thing. My family has become masters of embracing the changes and allowing God to use even the hardest times for good, not because we are the greatest but because we trust Him to be.
Today nothing is different and the Lilley family is in the midst of a sea of changes. As your family grows you take on the lives and changes of more people, opening your heart to more joy, and more pain. I thought about blogging about our trip to Colorado, or the camping trip we went on this weekend, but the truth is life and all its changes are really where I’m at so I’m going to share those instead :-)
Parents… They are living in Seattle! They bought a CUTE house and my dad has started working for the Seattle Gospel Rescue Mission! They are so excited about where God has them and starting their new lives off there. Me and Cody get to go visit in November for Thanksgiving and its killing me to have to wait!
Nole and Heather… They are living in Murrieta now! They moved into their new little home and Nole starts the LA County fire tower on the 13th! I’m so excited for them and this new stage, and that Nole got on so quickly (Two years! Haha) I cant wait to go visit them and see their cute place at the end of the month.
Nathan and Anna… Nathans coming home! He has been out at sea for 6 months and I know Anna cant wait for him to be home! It will be his last deployment for a while:-) I get to see Anna this weekend but am excited for the 25th when all us kids are going up to Oakglenn for a fun fall day together! Its good to all be together.
Dustin and Erin… are waiting for Talon! He is due on the 15th of November and it couldn’t come soon enough. Erin calls him man cub and none of us can wait to see his little face or to squeeze him! Dustin is working a lot and Erin is just getting ready to be mommy. We are having her shower this weekend which means all four of us sisters get to be together! Yeee
Edward… Is in Joshua! I have not heard much from him because he is busy but it sounds like he is having a great time! I miss getting to hear about his life and what’s going on but think his being there is a great thing :-) miss you Edward!
Us… Well we are waiting for construction to be done on the house (fingers crossed for the 28th!) enjoying time with family and friends before the move (which might be moved up…) I feel like I'm in the middle of a grand waiting game! Waiting for Talon, waiting for weekends with family, waiting to move and waiting for our turn to start the fire tower... God is so good and life is full of so many blessings even in our times of change and waiting.
Today nothing is different and the Lilley family is in the midst of a sea of changes. As your family grows you take on the lives and changes of more people, opening your heart to more joy, and more pain. I thought about blogging about our trip to Colorado, or the camping trip we went on this weekend, but the truth is life and all its changes are really where I’m at so I’m going to share those instead :-)
Parents… They are living in Seattle! They bought a CUTE house and my dad has started working for the Seattle Gospel Rescue Mission! They are so excited about where God has them and starting their new lives off there. Me and Cody get to go visit in November for Thanksgiving and its killing me to have to wait!
Nole and Heather… They are living in Murrieta now! They moved into their new little home and Nole starts the LA County fire tower on the 13th! I’m so excited for them and this new stage, and that Nole got on so quickly (Two years! Haha) I cant wait to go visit them and see their cute place at the end of the month.
Nathan and Anna… Nathans coming home! He has been out at sea for 6 months and I know Anna cant wait for him to be home! It will be his last deployment for a while:-) I get to see Anna this weekend but am excited for the 25th when all us kids are going up to Oakglenn for a fun fall day together! Its good to all be together.
Dustin and Erin… are waiting for Talon! He is due on the 15th of November and it couldn’t come soon enough. Erin calls him man cub and none of us can wait to see his little face or to squeeze him! Dustin is working a lot and Erin is just getting ready to be mommy. We are having her shower this weekend which means all four of us sisters get to be together! Yeee
Edward… Is in Joshua! I have not heard much from him because he is busy but it sounds like he is having a great time! I miss getting to hear about his life and what’s going on but think his being there is a great thing :-) miss you Edward!
Us… Well we are waiting for construction to be done on the house (fingers crossed for the 28th!) enjoying time with family and friends before the move (which might be moved up…) I feel like I'm in the middle of a grand waiting game! Waiting for Talon, waiting for weekends with family, waiting to move and waiting for our turn to start the fire tower... God is so good and life is full of so many blessings even in our times of change and waiting.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Lurv this man <3
This is...
- My best friend
- My laughter
- My joy
- My hope
- My strength
- My LOVE
- My blessing
....My Husband <3
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Erin's Shower!
Last weekend me and Anna got to throw a shower for Erin. It was so much fun to have all her close friends and family there. It was a dessert "Love & the Bedroom" sower. The cheese cake was my favorite :-) Everything came together so nicely and we found some great deals! Woop love those. Anyways my camera took mostly blurry pictures :-( boo so these are the few that turned out good.
Monday, July 20, 2009
I miss you
Life is short but a lot of the time its also amazingly sweet <3
I came across this picture of Chris today and couldn't help but laugh. It might be a bad picture but it reminds me of good times. This guy was great at three things making me mad, making me laugh and being one of the greatest friends I've had. Sometimes I still expect him to randomly show up like he loved to do. Knowing that he wont has hurt for a long time, but today seeing his picture made me happy instead of sad. I was blessed to know him. Today He is still making me mad for leaving so early. He is still making me laugh through memories of all the wonderful time we did have. And he is still one of the best friends Ive had. I miss you Chris <3
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